You spend so long being sad and listless that you wake up one morning and think today will be just like the other days, lonely and exhausting and just far too much.
But then slowly you realise that no, today is not like that. You don’t know what happened or how it happened, but you’re happy, and it’s so different and unexpected that you could almost cry. Nothing has changed except you, and the feeling is exhilarating. It’s like spending hours in the mist of early morning, half-asleep and about to give up, when the first rays of dawn come crawling up the horizon and suddenly you feel your purpose again.
You don’t know why you ever lost your way, or how you came back. You don’t know if you’ll ever find out. All you know is that right now you can take anything life throws at you, and that you’ve never been so happy to be happy.
Thank you so much to all my friends, irl and online, who helped me through this unnaturally terrible time of my life. I can’t even begin to tell you how much you are loved. May you always take joy in everything you do, and I hope happiness finds you always. <3